100 Words, 100 Days: Day 1

Signs you may be dealing with fertility issues:

1.  You have boxes of unopened pregnancy tests on the bottom shelf of your linen closet.  They have been there for almost a year.

2. A smelly concoction of Chinese fertility herbs that you must drink three times a day.

3.  Five scars on your abdomen from surgery that removed six uterine fibroids.

4.  The editing of your household budget so that you can seek help from fertility doctors, acupuncturists, and nutritionists.

5.  The unfair critique you give to strangers holding a baby and parents who are much younger than you. (You struggle with this feeling the most and feel like a bad person.)

6. The test results that show low egg count, advanced maternal age (39), and absence of ovulation.

7.  To make you feel better, your sister AND mother offer to carry a child for you and your partner.

8. The never-ending collection of books on your nightstand. Some might as well have titles like "A Healthy Womb: You Are Doing it Wrong," "How to Get Pregnant for Grannies: The Secrets," "The Fertility Diet: Why Do You Eat Like a Barbarian?," and "A Womb of One's Own: Pregnancy Guide for Feminists."


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